The sun has set over my little town, and I'm looking out my window at the dwindle of the gloaming-time, the magic time. And I'm all a-wash on the inside with sadness...
Because life just sucks sometimes, and to people who deserve better.
Just read one of my favourite blogs - the one that got me started as a blogger really - and they just lost their new baby after only 6 hours in the world. My god, I can't even imagine. It just makes my heart ache so much for them, and I feel so overwhelmed with sadness and grief for people I've never met face to face.
And I guess that shock-wave is still registering, but the universe was already a-kilter because I've spent most of the evening being frustrated with my blessed blessed oh-so-precious beautiful wonderful baby, who wouldn't/couldn't fall asleep for hours, and I've been .... frustrated. With this precious morsel of humanity that I am lucky enough to hang out with and get to spend time with - who's healthy and whole and happy most of the time. So that was a huge reality check.
And I've received several boxes of sewing supplies... bias tape by the bagful, zippers by the bagful, a whole box of gorgeous dress sewing patterns... you get the idea... and I've inherited it from a friend my Yogi-Mama-in-Laws who passed away last year. She was wheelchair bound, and used to sew lying on her stomach on her bed because she loved it so much.
So, jeeeezus.
Sometimes the universe just socks you one in the gut and this was it.
Blessed be to babies everywhere, but especially to those little spirits who just visit for a minute and to the hearts of the mamas and papas they leave behind. May we go gently with each other, and remember our time is oh so precious.
much love out into the gloaming universe tonight.
blessed be.
