Today, after a baby-induced stupor of a sleepless night, I woke to what I thought were rocks hitting our second-story bedroom window. I lay there for a while, trying to figure out why someone would throw rocks from a restaurant alleyway... and then peered out to see. It was only a roofer, clearing the gutter from the four-star restaurant next door. (I guess four-star restaurants still get dirty gutters, like the rest of us.)
But it got me up.
And in the end, it got me out to the door, and to the local children's centre, with the Mama's Breastfeeding group, and allowed me to clear my groggy head a bit. So, I think it was the universe throwing rocks at my psyche - telling me to get my ass in gear and get on with it.
And thusly, I set some New Year's Resolutions, albeit late ones, since it is the lucky 14th of January today. But better late than never, right?
I resolve and renew my desire to create - in whatever form it manifests for 2009. Last year, all my knitting and sewing and writing and doing churned into one single act of creation, which obliterated all the others. I am so grateful and happy to have Baby S here, but it's time to turn the tide and explore new avenues in 2009. I resolve to learn new routes and practice new tools.
I also resolve and renew my desire to concentrate on being simple, and focusing my energy on my personal life, rather than work-life.
And most importantly, I resolve to do One Thing Every Day That Scares Me... which was a resolution years ago, and possibly the best thing I ever did. It can be large or small, Big Scary or just a twinge of fear, andI don't have to succeed at it... but I do have to do it.
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